"Yes.. I am single, but you'll have to be FUCKING amazing to change that!"
So here I am again, 27 and single again. With my mum getting married this year and my best mate now engaged and planning her wedding, as happy as I am for her, I am feeling like I am a failure. Being left behind, destined to never meet the one. I mean is there even a ONE for us all, or is that something that has been drummed into us all?
As you guys know I had started to see someone a month ago, but yet again that ended in disaster. Things are not always as they seem and it is very complicated. It is so frustrating because he actually lives with my brother and I had started to become close friends with some of the other house mates, but I have heard that some nasty things have been said about me.
That is one of the reasons I decided to write this, I deserve to write my truth. I am a true believer in telling the whole truth even if you yourself have done something wrong, admit it. I however did do nothing wrong in this particular case and yet I am being portrayed as a horrible heartless person. Those that know me well, will know this is not true, that at least is a comfort.
It all started out rosey, you know those good old rose tinted glasses are great aren't they! Having been in an abusive relationship before I am very weary of men, and find it hard to let my walls down. Anyway after a few weeks things started to crack, little comments about the dog being more of a priority or me not wanting to cuddle all the time.
"I can never compete with her."
These are all little signs I look out for like jealously of the dog and jealously of my male friends too, to the point where he kept calling and texting me one day I was off from work. Even when I said I was busy, it just wouldn't let up.
"Are you seeing someone else?"
Other things were an issue too, job ethic just wasn't there, when we started dating he had just lost his job and he did get another, however when we were going through a rough patch before the break up he lost that one too. That kind of put the nail in the coffin for me, because I need someone that I can rely on and if you cannot keep your job then that says something to me.
Even now I am finding things out, little things that he lied about, like going to work for example. If he was lieing about that, what else did he lie about?
I just don't understand how I seem to find guys that are possessive and jealous? I really don't get it. I don't mean to be nasty but I even looked well past looks and went just for what I thought was a good personality, boy was I wrong.
"Be Happy Single so you can be Happy in a Relationship"
I don't know about you, but I find it hard to start dating on dating sites purely because I am not one for texting very much and that is the only way you get to know someone on online dating. It is very easy for me to look like I am not interested.
The other issue I have found with online dating and dating apps is that it is hard to weed out the guys that aren't just on there for a fling or a quick hook up. That's why I was happy to hear about Adult Dating, a dating site just for those looking for a quick hook up as the name suggests, no strings attached. It's not something I would use but I hope it will become more widely known so that other sites such as Over 50's Dating, Shetland Dating, Borders Dating, Glasgow Dating and Mature Hampshire Dating, can become more for those looking for serious long term relationships.
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