I'm Confused...*

Isn't it funny that when you decide to give up on the opposite sex (or the same if that's what you like) that something comes along... very expectedly I might add.

After having a rant about how I couldn't be bothered with men anymore because I seem to just attract Psychos.. I mean it's not like I have had the best track record is it. I had someone text me that evening, to make me aware that they were interested and didn't want me to give up.

When I have used dating sites in the past such as Norfolk Dating, Birmingham Dating, Cambridgeshire Dating, Hertfordshire Dating and Aberdeen Dating, I have found one or two good guys but it just hasn't ever gone anywhere, purely because we didn't have the connection for a relationship or the time for one another.

My friend recently told me that I am my own worst enemy and I can kind of understand what she is saying in that I have a history of looking for something wrong with the guys I am dating. In my defence it has always turned out to be true, so why not trust my instincts??

The main reason I hadn't ever taken any notice of them before wasn't because I didn't find him attractive, quite on the contrary, it was actually due to the fact that he seemed to be exactly my type.
That and his persona gave me the impression he was kind of a player, the kinds of girls he usually dated are not plain jane like me if you catch my drift.

I have been trying my best to go in with an open mind, I am fairly easy going given all I have been through after being in an abusive relationship, I don't want to be controlling or controlled. The only thing that will really get my goat is lying and letting me down.

It is hard though, trying to just have fun. Is it just me but why is everything focused on sex and needing to send/ receive photos? I don't remember the first couple of weeks talking to someone, when you're trying to get to know them being focused on mainly one thing. If you don't join in or give it up then you're very easily labeled as shy, boring or frigid.

I honestly think people think I am dim sometimes. Seriously do you not realise that I am going to know that, if you send me a whole bunch of photos in one go, that I am going to know that you have used those in the past. If you are going to send a girl a photo she does not want one you have sent to several others.. and do you really want the kind of girl that will send out photos willy nilly either?

We started talking quite a lot to being with and seemed to get on quite well. I actually enjoyed messaging, which is very unlike me, I usually hate texting! However recently things have seemed to have gone quite, just cannot seem to figure out why.

I asked to meet over the weekend, so that we could get to know one another a little better. After all, thats what dating is all about isn't it? He seemed keen to being with, but on the day didn't really show much interest and was pretty difficult about where on earth we were to meet. Pretty much saying that he wasn't going to meet half way, without saying the words, ending up deciding that I would drive to him.

So obviously I got ready, full face of make-up and all, but when I text to see if we were still meeting, I heard nothing. We hadn't actually decided a time or exact location, so I was hoping he was going to tell me where to go and want to actually see me. Needless to say I didn't hear back for over 4 hours, with some excuse and saying yes he did want to meet and the standard 'wish you were here'. Well little late now.. given that it was then the evening...

I was hoping things were going to progress nicely, but with the way things are going I am not so sure...

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